my name is James Mason Cowell. i love playing and listening too music. i always try to make people happy. anything is worth doing if one calls it an adventure...
i tend to find myself walking in the same foots steps of my 17 to 19 year old self. before those times i knew what to do, how to do it, and when to do it. now, it seems i have lost my touch.
i ask myself daily, “am i good enough for her? am i doing the right thing? am i treating her like i should?”
i dont know if she plays those games like the young lady my past self once knew. i cant help but think she does. i always feel like i am doing something wrong or saying the wrong thing. i am always on edge. i am always prepared. i just cant let my guard down.
i try so hard to be different and to just be myself, but ive been hurt so much…
she is one of the few i have ever been truly comfortable with.
i just want to stray from the path and change. i want to have no walls. i want to be myself again.